「最近blogもあんまし更新されないし、死んでるのかと思った」
と何度か言われたので、
おかげさまで生きてます的な意味を込めて。
最初にネット上で何か書くようになってから、
もう８年経つのかぁ。
いつの間にかずっと書き続けることにやりがいを感じて
それが楽しみになっていたんだけれど。
じゃあなんでここ何週間も、何も書かなくなったんだろう、と。
その辺りから自分の現状を分析してみようと思う。
とりあえず１５分でこの記事は終わらせる。
書くことに嘘があってはいけない
と言うのが、最初に日記を書く時（高専１年？）思った原則のひとつ。
その理由は小学校までさかのぼるんだけどそれはまた今度。
あ、あんまし俺って大昔のことを思い出さないんだなぁ・・って今思った。
まぁ、それもまた今度にしよう。
嘘があってはいけない。
でも、今何か書こうと思うと嘘ばっか書きそうだから
何も今書いてないんだと思う。
なんで嘘を書くか、って言うと
誰かが見てることを意識してるから、かな。
別に誰かに強制されてるわけじゃないんだし、
誰かが見てたって構わないし、
と言うのはわかってるのに
何かためらうところがあって。今更、って感じがするけど。
ただ、もう疲れたから、それもいいかなって。
前の通り、あったことを思ったように書いておきたい。
じゃないと今生きてることにあんまし意義が見出せないもん。
（ちょっと以前の調子が戻って来ました）
思うに就活終わってから、精神的に参り過ぎです。
ああ、意外と俺はもろいんだなぁ、って済ませてもいいけど
なんかすごくもったいない気がしてきた。
学生最後の１年だし、もっとやりたいことはいっぱいあるから。
悔いなく新しい年度を迎えたい。
と、自分で書いて自分に励まされています。
いつも構ってくれる友達が周りにいて
毎日違うことが周りで起きているんだから
それだけでも十分幸せやのに。
こう毎日疲れたーって顔してるのは馬鹿馬鹿しい。
疲れてる理由もわかってるんだから。
今からまたしゃきっと生きていこ。
とりあえず１５分経ったからこの辺で。
金曜の午後とか暇？
とりあえず、狩ろうぜ！！！
まで読んだ。
お前らしい。
お前らしいなんて、俺が決めるもんでもないけど、最後の部分はそう思う。
そうやなきゃ！
って思えるような学生生活期待してんで
―――という報告が、まんとるからの最後の報せになったのだった･･
＞シラキ
こないだはどーも！
あれ以来しばらく卵を食べてません。
＞こころ
んなこと書いてないｗｗｗｗ
＞asuto
やっぱりお前と俺は似てるところがあるな。
と９年目にして思うわ。
＞かみや
まだ生きててごめん。
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